by Blue Sleighty © MY
SECRET OBSESSION 2011
IS AN ADULT STORY WITH ADULT THEMES DEPICTING LESBIAN SEXUAL
ACTS. IF IT IS NOT LEGAL FOR YOU TO READ STORIES OF THIS
NATURE, OR IF IT OFFENDS YOU- LEAVE NOW.
Callison and Smooth Blue. A
sudden, intense, rush of sexual excitement coursed through
me, as I read 'the name' on the entertainment calendar
that my boss had asked me to post at the hostess station,
at the front of the club. Just reading her name gave
me butterflies! I posted the calendar on the wall with
tape, and then stepped back to make sure that it hung
had great performers. Lightnin'
Lee Hooker, Taj
Long, Rocky Hill, Tommy DarDar, Leonard Lowdown Brown,
Mark Mays, and, Bette Callison.
love the blues. And, I have been priveledged to meet some
of the most talented blues men and women performing. I booked
music acts, for the club where I worked. And, with time,
I would get to know our performers. I got to actually be
there when some of the songs that you have heard on the radio,
were written. We hosted jam sessions, songwriters nights,
and open mic nights, and other opportunities that brought
together some amazing talent. We were a musician's club.
We took great care of our talent. And, I feel that I was
lucky to BE there, and be part of it. And, that is a very
precious thing to me. But, that's another story. I digress.
was an incredible, sensuous, thrill of a woman. She sang
her songs with a low, throaty, growl, from somewhere deep
within her passionate soul. She was mesmerizing, on stage.
She moved with fluid motion, and grace. She WAS sensuality.
When her show started, the room was quiet, and no one took
their eyes off of her. She belonged on that stage, and she
loved being there. She turned the room on. You could feel
the heat and the electricity. And, what she inspired people
to do on the dance floor was a down right sin.
body was tall, and thin, and lithe, like a dancer's. Her
hair was thick, and almost black. Long, and rather coarse,
but still shiny. Mane-like, I thought. Bette's big, emerald,
eyes, had perfect topaz stars around each pupil . And, I
was so, so, fortunate to get so close, to see those stars.
was an assistant manager of a blues club, in Texas. Which
was an appropriate job for me, because my name is Blue. Blue
Blue Sleighty. I can't help what my boozy party hound parents
named me. I was 21 years old. I wanted to be an artist. But,
my artwork did not pay my bills. So, I had to learn how to
survive doing other things. MANY other things.
had been attracted to women all of my short life (it wasn't
a phase lol). I'd had unrequited crushes on a teacher, or
two, when I was in school. And, I had fooled around, a little,
with a couple of girls. Actually, I had fooled around with
just about every single one of my girlfriends, as a teenager.
I figured out at a pretty young age, that I liked women.
And, I found out at a pretty young age, that it was not an
acceptable thing. Cuz, when I asked my next door neighbor
what "queer" meant (I had heard her niece was one),
when I was 5 years old, she went on quite a rampage, and
warned me to stay away from her niece.
caused me some distress for a while, figuring out I was queer,
and then being told that queers were sick and perverted,
AND going to burn in HELL. Again. lol But, the 70's were
very big on bisexuality, and, so it wasn't long before I
could pretty safely identify as bisexual, and feel OK about
myself. Then, I didn't have to admit that I was gay, and,
I could still be with girls. I was trendy, and outrageous.
Right? (That worked for me, for a very long time).
now, I was an adult. And, I knew I loved women (but, I still
wasn't ready to come out). And, I knew that this woman, Bette
Callison, made my pulse race. My mouth go dry. My mind go
blank. And, my spirit soar. And, for the first time in my
life, I had my own place, and my own life, and I was free
to do whatever I pleased. And, I dreamed.
was obsessed with Bette. I loved the way that being near
her made me feel. I thought she was the most beautiful woman
I had ever seen. I loved her big green eyes rimmed with long,
thick lashes, against her sun tanned skin, and dark hair.
The thought of her white, straight teeth and full lips, flashing
her sexy smoldering, smile, made me smile, myself. I fantasized
about her, day and night. And I booked her band as often
as I could. She did put on a great show, and I appreciated
her talent. But, I booked her so often, because I just HAD
to see her.
my boss figured it out. He noticed that I was "hot" (his
word) for Bette. And, he began to worry, he told me, that
people would notice how I behaved when I was around her.
(I don't think that I was that obvious, I think that it just
bothered HIM when he figured it out) He was afraid that it
would be bad for business for me to be discovered to be a
lesbian (and years later, he turned out to be correct, but,
that's another story). My looks, and the fact that men found
me attractive were part of why he hired me. So, he started
scheduling me to be off work, on the nights that Bette performed.
He told me that I was acting like a fool, and he would just
have to eliminate the problem, since he couldn't solve the
problem. And, that it was just a phase. Fuck head. He really
screwed up my program.
longed to see her. But, I was not allowed to go into the
club on my nights off. It was a dilemma. It had been weeks
since I had seen Bette.
was so depressed! And, I couldn't talk to anyone about how
I felt, because, I wasn't OUT. It was lonely. Bisexuality
was supposed to be all fun and games.
was a glamor girl. Great looking. 5' 6", sun bleached
blonde hair, blue green eyes, and dark tan, from partying
by the pool almost every single day, before work, and spending
many of my weekends, and vacations in the Yucatan. I had
a beautiful body. I was hard and muscular, from hard physical
work, and, I really put a lot of work into trying to look
my best. My looks kept me working in the bar business. I
looked like I stepped out of a centerfold. I am referred
to as the "bunny type", by those who only know
me from a glance (their words, not mine). I know I sound
like an arrogant asshole, and, I'm sorry. No one would ever
have guessed that I was gay. When I even TRIED to tell people
that I was gay, they would look at me with exasperation,
and say, "Uh! NO, you're NOT!"
I silently obsessed over Bette. And, she didn't even know
I was alive, except that I was partly responsible for scheduling
her work life, and I served her gin and tonic, when she wanted
a drink. And, maybe she noticed that I was never there anymore,
but, I would never know. I tried to reason with myself. She
probably didn't even LIKE women. I tried to talk myself out
of caring. But, I couldn't help it. I spent hours in bed,
fantasizing about making love to her. And, I touched myself,
imagining how it would be to make her feel the way that I
was feeling. Imagining HOW to make her feel the way that
I was feeling. I imagined her kiss, and her taste, and how
I would touch her. I could get high on her, if I let my mind
work, I thought to myself that, at least, I was in the right
place. Because, I sure did have the blues. I felt like laughing
a little, for the first time in weeks. I was starting to
get a handle on my infatuation with Bette. My boss, Ken,
was at a football game. I wouldn't be seeing him. He would
be gone, all night. I was glad. I had a love/hate relationship
with Ken. Being rich, handsome, and charming as hell, made
him so much easier to forgive for being such an asshole.
I knew I could count on him, if I really needed help. And,
he thought I was the smartest person in the world, and forgave
me for the ignorance of youth. I liked that about him!
loved it when someone called in sick, and I got to tend bar,
or wait on tables. I got sick of the tedious paperwork, and
phone calls, and inventory, and supply ordering, that is
manager's work. It kept me away from the action. I always
got to see the act, if I wanted to, on nights that I worked.
I had plenty of things to do behind the bar, and I could
always take care of them while the music was on. I liked
to socialize with the customers. The regulars were like family.
And, I didn't get to do that from the back office.
looked at our newly printed entertainment calendar, and sighed,
as I read Bette's name on the calendar, one more time. And,
a voice called from behind me. A jolt shocked through me.
I immediately recognized her voice! It was Bette's voice!
Oh, SHIT!!! Oh, YAY!, And, what the hell?, I wondered. I
was feeling giddy. I tried to compose myself.
a girl got to do to get a drink around this joint, woman?" Bette
looked sternly at me, and then broke into a smile. She was
teasing me. I liked it. "How've you been, Blue?," she
asked. I smiled. I liked Bette's little tank top. She looked
great in black. She was wearing black jeans, and high heeled
boots. She was carrying a black motorcycle jacket. She was
SO hot! I sighed.
got a tall collins glass, filled it with ice, and set it
on the mat, across the bar from Bette. With my left hand,
I pulled a green bottle from the speed rack, and poured a
double shot of gin into the glass, raising the bottle high,
and letting the liquor stream into the glass, as, with my
right hand, I filled the glass with tonic from the soda gun.
Multi tasking. lol A couple of squeezes of lime, and a blue
straw. I sat the drink on a napkin, on the bar, in front
of Bette."I'll just put THAT one on Ken's tab",
I smiled, and went to the register to make a little slash
mark on a guest check, with my boss's name on it.
Old Ken was always my favorite," Bette winked, and tipped
her glass, as if to toast him, before she took several long
pulls off of the straw in her gin and tonic.
where have you been? You haven't been here, lately." Bette
asked, with just a hint of a demanding tone. Oh! She noticed!
My heart fluttered. I thought for a moment, she was going
to lock eyes with me. She was really giving me a hard time.
dawned on me, that she was flirting.
only been off on nights when YOU work. Why?", I teased
back, dishing out a little abuse. "Did you miss me?" I
wondered what she would think if she knew the real reason.
teased, as she chomped a piece of ice.
what brings you here? Why aren't you working someplace, tonight?" I
asked her, as I washed, and dried glasses.
like my biggest fans are HERE, these days." She laughed. "No,
really, I'll tell you, a little later, fair enough?" she
said, avoiding my eyes, and looking into her glass.
fucking HATE suspense, of any kind. I must KNOW. EVERYTHING.
I acted as disinterested as possible though, and tried
not to think about it. But, inside, my curiosity was driving
me crazy. It was probably no big deal. I was probably projecting
all kinds of craziness, because I was so enamored and obsessed.
And, I was so excited to see Bette!
the bar got packed, and the music started. Bette joined the
band's table, and I got too busy to notice what she was doing,
except for the occasional stolen glimpse. I had to make myself
behave, and keep my mind on what I was doing.
night went by quickly. My tip jars were full, at the end
of the night. I always counted my tips, last. I was busying
myself with the nightly closing tasks. Draining coolers.
Stocking beer, and bottles of liquor, carrying buckets of
ice; removing the mats from the well areas, and the floors,
and mopping; washing glasses, and hanging them, and finally,
counting my cash drawer. It was midnight. We closed earlier,
during the week, than we did on the weekends. And, every
time I thought of Bette, my heart did flip-flops.
had to piss like a Russian racehorse. I looked around the
bar. The musicians were still hanging out, cleaning up their
instruments, and putting them into their cases, folding up
mic stands, and wrapping cords, and rolling amps out the
door. I locked up the register, made sure the front door
was locked, and walked down the corridor to the ladies room.
To my surprise, Bette was waiting for me, in there. Sitting
on the chaise lounge, sipping a drink. She smiled when she
saw me enter the lounge.
been waiting for you to get off work. I was counting on this
being one of your first stops, after you locked the door," Bette
laughed. Pretty smart, I thought to myself. In a really stupid
sort of way. I laughed.
thought I took up all of the drinks, ma'am. You're going
to get me closed down," I scolded.
stalls were all empty. That was good. No stragglers, to coax
into calling it a night. I entered a stall, and unzipped
my slacks. What a relief! I felt a little shy, as I heard
the sound of my piss hitting the water. But, I was SO happy
to be there, and, I quickly got over it. I was wondering,
of course, what Bette was doing, hanging around, waiting
on me. I hoped it wasn't about getting paid more money, or
something like THAT. Paying the talent wasn't my department,
anyway. I just booked them. She would have to talk to Ken
zipped up. and went to the sink. I was about to cut to the
chase, and ask what was up, but Bette beat me to the punch.
heard Bette clear her throat. "Ken told someone that
you had a crush on me. That true?" Bette asked softly
from her seat on the chaise lounge.
Nothing like being blunt, and to the point, I thought. I
was NOT prepared for this. I really didn't know what I was
supposed to do! A crush? A CRUSH? Uh? Ken. That fucker. I
was afraid to answer. I made great money, and had plenty
of bills, and I really, mostly loved my job. I didn't want
to lose it. And, I didn't want to offend Bette, and at this
point it wasn't clear where she was coming from. "Uh!
I don't think I'm going to discuss this with you. I can't
really help what Ken says to people," I mumbled, reaching
for a paper towel. I dried my hands, thinking I would go
back to the bar, when Bette came up behind me.
like to go somewhere, where we can talk about it," she
said from behind me, watching my reflection in the mirror.
is there to talk about?," I asked, pitching my paper
towels into the waste basket..
something. I think." She tried to make eye contact with
me, but I refused to look up. I COULDN'T look up. "If
you want to find out, let's go. Come with me for just a little
while," she coaxed.
can't let anyone see me leave with you, Bette. If you want
to talk, you can come to my apartment. I live at Spring Lakes,
in apartment 1208. You are welcome to come by. Now, I've
got to get out of here, before someone walks in. Now that
people are gossipping about me, and all," I jabbed.
And, with that, I walked out of the bathroom, and went back
to the bar. The other bartenders were still around, counting
tips. I grabbed my jars, and stashed them in the office.
I'd count tomorrow. I was getting the hell out of there!
leaving! You guys lock it!" and I ducked out the back
didn't see Bette, anywhere. I was scared! I was terrified
to let myself realize that it was really happening. She probably
wouldn't show up at my apartment. Would she? nah She'd think
about it, and feel as terrified as I did, and she wouldn't
show up. God. I hoped she didn't show up. My mind raced through
all sorts of possibilities. I shivered, as I wondered what
the rest of the night would hold in store. And, I braced
for terrible disappointment,
case she didn't show up.
was there! I was so excited, and scared. I was so nervous,
I wasn't sure that I could walk. Somehow, Bette had beaten
me home. She was sitting on my porch swing, watching the
reflections of light dance on the rippling surface of the
lake, when I pulled up in my pick up. I lived right on a
lake. I enjoyed it very much. It was very peaceful. Mine
was one of many apartments in the community. All brand new,
walked up the steps, hiding my terror well, and opened the
door to my apartment, gesturing for her to come inside, with
me. "Sshh," I whispered, "don't wake the ducks
up". I teased.
was proud of where I lived. I had a nice apartment. Bette
had a seat on my sofa, while I got a bottle of white wine,
and two wine glasses from the kitchen. "Awesome place!",
she remarked. And, it really was. I thought I was pretty
view was beautiful. I lit some candles and cut the lights,
so we could better enjoy the view of the lake, without having
to open the doors. I sat a glass in front of each of us,
and poured some wine. Bette produced a spliffie from her
purse. I grinned, and nodded my approval. She winked, and
fired it up, inhaling deeply, exhaling, and then, taking
another hit, before passing it to me. I took it from her,
and took a deep hit, and then, remembered that we needed
some music. I turned on my stereo, and put on Nina Simone.
what do we need to talk about?", I asked. I was feeling
pretty good. Braver, anyway. And, Bette had already had a
few drinks. She had been at the bar since 10:00 PM. And,
it was now 1:00 AM.
didn't say anything. She just slid over closer to me, looked
at me for a second, and then closed her eyes, slowly, and
kissed me on the side of the mouth. I turned more towards
her, and met her lips with mine, and then hers parted, slightly,
letting my tongue find hers. It was then I learned what the
term, "take my breath away", means. We kissed forever.
Not long enough. Maybe hours. It was intoxicating. Ecstacy!
A kiss I will ALWAYS remember. I couldn't believe it was
really happening. It felt so good. In my own place, with
complete privacy, with the finest woman on the planet.
Simone sang "I'm just sitting here, waiting for you
to turn me on...."
took Bette by the hand and urged her to follow, leading her
to my bedroom. We stood in the middle of the floor, at the
foot of my bed. I faced her, and slid her tank top over her
head. The room was dark, except for lights shining in from
the kitchen. She unbuckled her belt, and unzipped her black
jeans. I had my pants off, and was unbuttoning my shirt,
as I went back to my living room, for the rest of our wine.
I lit a candle, when I returned to my room. The room filled
with the warm scent of vanilla, and the soft flame, tinted
everything in it's amber glow. And, when I turned back around,
there was Bette, bathed in candlelight, laying on her side,
on my big, four poster bed. I admired the sharp curve from
her waist to her hip. She smiled, and patted the mattress
beside her, with one raised eyebrow. And, then, she wasn't
smiling, but the look on her face reflected the way that
moved beside her, and took her in my arms, pushing her onto
her back, with me above her. I rolled towards her and lowered
myself to meet her mouth with mine. We kissed deeply. The
tips of our tongues moving against each other, as we breathed,
with mouths locked together in passion. I pulled back for
a moment, to look into her eyes. All sensation and emotion
seemed to suddenly intensify, as our eyes met. Our mouths
met again, this time, searching hungrily. My body pressed
into hers. My breasts against her breasts. I could feel her
position my thigh against her, as she moved her hips forward
to press harder, pushing and relaxing, rthymically, as we
kissed with our bodies entwined.
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moved by body beside hers, with my forearm under her neck.
I propped up on my left elbow. I stroked her skin with my
right hand, my fingers spread apart wide, caressing her body,
wanting to feel her every curve. To experience every inch
of her.The smoothness of her skin. The definition of her
muscles. The swell of her breasts. I bent my head down, and
kissed her mouth. My fingertips lightly traced her contours.
I found her nipples, tracing from one, to the other. Her
breasts were small. I moved my mouth to her breast, to suck
her nipple into my mouth. Bette let out a little moan. I
kissed her more, and ran my hand down between her legs, enjoying
the coarse, curly thick, hair. I parted her curls of pubic
hair to find her clit. Moving my fingers further down, I
found her wetness, easily, as it was already overflowing
her vagina. I felt the warm slickness of her natural juices,
as I moved my fingers down from her clit, and pushed between
the plump lips of her pussy. I parted her lips, and rubbed
her clit, up and down, arousing Bette more and more.
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was in ecstacy. Complete bliss. My heart pounded with excitement,
pumping blood to my engorged clit. Feeling her beautiful,
smooth body beneath mine excited me in a way that I never
dreamed was possible. My fantasies were never as good as
the reality of that moment.
had to taste her. I had never done this before. Never been
down on a woman. But, I had fantasized. Often. And, I could
hardly wait to taste her, and breathe her in. I raised my
body, and moved down between her legs. I pushed her knees
back. With a hand on each inner thigh, I parted her cunt
lips, separating the thick hair, to better expose her clit.
I pushed my mouth tight against Bette's pussy. She moaned,
and pushed herself against my mouth. I found her vagina with
my tongue, and pushed my tongue inside of her as deeply as
it would go, wrapping my arms around her hips, and pulling
myself tightly against her. I pushed my tongue in and out
of her pussy, tasting her juices.
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ran my tongue up and down her clit, almost to the end, but
stopping right before I got to the most sensitive part, not
wanting to cause the sensation to be TOO intense to be pleasurable.
I kept my tongue slick with her juices, and slid it up and
down, and up and down, exciting her and teasing her. I reached
up and pinched her hard nipples, sending a jolt through her.
And, then, moved my hand back down to her cunt, and found
the tight opening.
fingers soaked with her flowing juices, I pushed inside of
her cunt, moving them in and, in and in, fucking her, as
I licked her clit with my tongue.
was propped up on my elbow, and had my hand under the small
of her back, pushing her cunt against my face. Her legs were
wide apart, with her knees drawn up, grinding her pussy against
my licking tongue. I fucked her pussy with my fingers, and
slowly, and softly, worked my middle finger against her asshole.
My finger slipped inside of her. So tight. She gasped, as
she got into the sensation. She was so wet, my fingers moved
in and out of her with ease as I fucked her in both places
at the same time, one finger in her cunt, and the other in
her ass, fucking her, and licking her clit. She moved her
hips, fucking me back. She gyrated her pelvis and fucked,
and moaned with mounting pleasure.
whispered, gasping, "I thought I was the only one that
knew about that......"
caught her breath, sharply, and cried out, in pleasure
I knew she was coming. I pushed my fingers all of the way
inside of her, and she clamped her muscles tight around them,
as she shook, and came, muscles clutching in rythymic, involuntary
spasms. I moved from between her legs, and kissed her on
her lips, her juices still on my mouth, my fingers still
in her pulsing pussy. She squeezed her thighs together, my
hand still between them, and fingers still inside her hot
throbbing cunt, and she kissed me, and tasted herself in
lay in a tight embrace, our bodies entwined from head to
toe. Smokey Robinson crooned "Cruisin'". The candle
was out. And I dozed off to sleep, with Bette sleeping in
my arms. And, I was changed. Forever.